- I am far more relaxed at home.
- I consider time out for myself as a need and not a luxury.
- Family relationships are going along new pathways.
- There is more organisation/ order in my home.
Since being a little girl I have learnt how to distance myself from things that hurt. That is the coping mechanism that worked for me then and so it has grown up with me. I am now recognising that I might be loosing out on something because of this distance. With friendships it has been far easier to write a blog and keep facebook updates letting friends know what is physically going in my life. However to avoid having to talk about it (because it all hurts so much), I have managed to stay away from the telephone and from meeting up with friends for far too long.
I believe friends are a God given gift, maybe it is the shrinking of my family (through death and other things beyond my control), that is making me realise I need to get back on track with friendships. At the moment that feels like a really big and scary path to walk. However I know that if I look at practically how far I have moved on since beginning my counselling in September, it should not be too painful to tackle another area.
So to any friends that are reading this, I am sorry and I will start talking again in real life and I am so grateful for your love, care and patience with me.