I love this description from wikipedia of what hope is:
Hope is the emotional state, the opposite of which is despair, which promotes the belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstances in one's life.
We went to see more of the new place that our niece is now staying at this morning. It is a secure forensic psychiatric unit. We were introduced to her key nurse, her occupational therapist, the family therapist (who we know from a previous placement) and her in house mental health social worker.
This is the end of the line for our niece, there is nowhere more secure that can keep her safe from harming herself. It is a national unit and is filled with professionals who are very used to the self destructive behaviour that she is displaying. Since going there 4 weeks ago, her behaviour has probably worsened a little more, there is certainly no improvement. However we know now from our experiences of the last 6 months that this is because she is testing boundaries. So far she has managed to test boundaries to the point where she has been moved on to another placement. This time there is no where for her to move on to.
We were asked how we were feeling about her being there. The only response we could give was hopeful. I certainly did not feel this while she was at the last placement. And what else could we answer? I do not wish to feel despair.
Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Trusting God to watch over this dear 14 year old is so difficult, however having no hope would be even more difficult.
Two days ago we had my grandma's funeral. We were inside the crematorium for approximately 2 1/2 minutes. Hardly time to sit down before we were standing up and leaving. There were three of us present, my mum, my brother and me - all the 'family' that she had left. There were no friends, no fond memories expressed, no expressions of legacy that will keep her to mind. Maybe that is what happens when you loose hope? You become lost in the world.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.