What a change to my last post. I am pleased to say that I managed to get back on top of my feelings, talk to the right people and make a decision on how I was going to proceed with what had happened. All that counselling and prayer is working! It needed to, as last Wednesday May 18th was hubs and mine 20th wedding anniversary and we took ourselves off to Venice to celebrate. My husbands second mum (step mum sounds so scary) came and looked after our 15 and 16 year olds. It was the first time we had been away for more than one night since my mum died 3 years ago.
Now just before we went my husband let on that he wasn't intending to take me on a Gondola. Fortunately for me Granny Liz felt as strongly as I did that it was something we MUST do :) .